Pamela Anderson is sharing more insight into why she left Hollywood for her home country of Canada.
The actress told Women’s Wear Daily this week that her decision came about as a way for her “to really kind of look at [her] life and remember who [she] was.”
“Not what other people were telling me I was — and I didn’t want anything that had happened to me define me,” she further explained.
“I wanted what I do to define me… all these realizations came to me in the rose garden.”
The Baywatch” star, 57, left Tinseltown for Vancouver Island, British Columbia, a few years ago during a period of self-reflection.
In an interview with Better Homes & Gardens in August, Anderson recalled that she “kind of gave up at some point” and felt she “needed a change” ahead of her move.
“I don’t know what happened over the last few decades, but I feel now so far removed from the image of who I was,” she explained to the publication.
The “Barb Wire” star added that she also felt “very sad and lonely,” as well as “misunderstood.”
“I felt like I had really screwed up, that my whole life was a bundle of mistakes,” she said.
Anderson did not share at the time what mistakes she thought she made, but she described what she believed people thought of her.
“People have this pneumatic kind of image of me from Playboy to ‘Baywatch,’ to my rock ’n’ roll type of husbands, to everything else,” the former Playmate said.
“But I also played into the image that was created around me. I’m glad I did all that, but I’m really glad I’m where I am now.”
Anderson recognized that she had “made it through all of it,” concluding, “Now it’s such a relief that I get to be myself and enjoy this time.”
Anderson was a notorious ’90s sex symbol after skyrocketing to fame from “Baywatch” and becoming a staple in Playboy magazine.
She was infamously involved in a leaked sex tape in 1996 with her then-husband, Mötley Crüe drummer Tommy Lee, which she previously mentioned weighed on her immensely.
The pair share two adult sons: Brandon Thomas Lee, 28, and Dylan Jagger Lee, 26.
Anderson went on to try out marriage several more times, but she is currently single. She did not have any more children.
